ahhhhhhhhhh... the last month of another year.. christmas is jus around the corner.. town is lit up in their year's best again, shops handing out sales like free sweets.. time never fails to fly eh, it's like only last month when 31st dec came by.. xmas at viamar with shah and the bunch of crazy people.. =) bdays watching fireworks at esplanade with one of the best views drinking cold beer.. jus monday i was telling liyi how our younger days were "all that stands between me and the world is a jug of "whatever alcohol".. TAH! -chugchugchug-"
but so much have changed now, i've kinda grown up and matured a lil.. have a stable job that buys me many pretty things.. and a whole clique of good frens/colleages.. and old colleagues moved on to uni life or new jobs and positions, new colleages taking over their cubicles.. and many new budding relationships and romance -> lili's got a chubby hubby-(to be) and i'm going to uni in the new year! =)
my goals last year was to get into b.tech and i did.. now to do well, which is gonna be an uphill climb seriously! and i'm going taiwan in july next year with qing.. prolly be booking the air tix later this month.. =) i really look forward to that.. and we'll have spent the last 2 years together coming jan.. this year has really been a good year.. i hope it'll only get better here on..
Date With A Woman
i wrote in @ 8:53 a.m. on Monday, Oct. 12, 2009
not me of cos.. it's a very touching story i jus wanted to share.. i'm sure you guys might have read it somewhere already.. but it's still a very nice story.. ^_^
After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie.
She said i love you but i know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you.
The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my mother, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally.
That night i called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie.
'What's wrong, are you well?' she asked?
My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news.
'I thought that it would be pleasant to be with you.' i responded.
'Just the two of us.'
She thought about it for a moment, and then said, 'i would like that very much.'
That friday after work, as i drove over to pick her up i was a bit nervous. When i arrived at her house, i noticed that she too seemed to be nervous about our date.
She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's.
'I told my friends that i was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed, '
She said, as she got into the car. 'They can't wait to hear about our meeting'.
We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy.
My mother took my arm as if she were the first lady.
After we sat down, i had to read the menu. Large print.
Half way through the entries, i lifted my eyes and saw mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips.
'It was i who used to have to read the menu when you were small,' she said.
'Then it's time that you relax and let me return the favor,' i responded.
During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation, nothing extra-ordinary,
but catching up on recent events of each others life..
We talked so much that we missed the movie.
As we arrived at her house later,
She said, 'i'll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you.'
I agreed.
'How was your dinner date?' asked my wife when i got home.
'Very nice. Much more so than i could have imagined,' i answered.
A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack.
It happened so suddenly that i didn't have time to do anything for her.
Some time later, i received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt
From the same place mother and i had dined.
An attached note said:
'I paid this bill in advance.
I wasn't sure that i could be there;
But nevertheless, i paid for two plates –
One for you and the other for your wife.
You will never know what that night meant for me.
I love you, my son.'
At that moment, i understood the importance of saying in time: I LOVE YOU!' And to give our loved ones the time that they deserve.
Nothing in life is more important than god and your family.
Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till 'some other time.'
Pass this along to everyone
With an aging parent,
To a child,
To an adult,
To anyone with a parent,
And most importantly,
To someone you truly love
~With love,
Jo|ty^
By2 - 我知道
i wrote in @ 2:48 p.m. on Wednesday, Sept. 30, 2009
By2 - 我知道从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过
从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流
~With love,
Jo|ty^
updatesssss
i wrote in @ 10:18 a.m. on Wednesday, Sept. 30, 2009
hi people, so i've added 2 new widgets on my blog.. 1 is the FF distant worlds mp3 widget, and the other is plurk, which is kinda like twitter i suppose.. it sorta provides a status update on the spot i guess? haha.. ok time to go labbbbbbbbbbbbb!
~With love,
Jo|ty^
misery is what i feel..
i wrote in @ 9:45 a.m. on Tuesday, Sept. 08, 2009
i think i'm either going through a phase, falling into depression or already have mild depression.. and no i don't wish to kill myself cos it's jus plain dumb.. i rather fly myself to some seaside island and park myself there for a year..
but i am lost.. cos i don't know what i wan anymore.. don't know if i wanna go work out there, don't know if i wanna go study chem eng already.. don't know if i'm walking in the right direction.. it's like i lost my sense of direction, lost my "confidence" (note the air quote cos i don't know if i even had any in the first place).. and i'm breaking out in pimples every now and then jus when i thought my face is on it's way to recorvery.. feh.. i'm now cynical and bitter, repressed and obsessed.. and making a hell load of spelling errors on the way.. it's like i wanna talk and scream and yell but there's no one to hear me and nowhere to let me do so.. is this what solitude and lonliness feels like? dragging my feet along at everything in life.. it feels crashing and suffocating.. or am i jus wallowing in my misery and self pity..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
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i wrote in @ 10:41 a.m. on Wednesday, Sept. 02, 2009
wednesday! 2 more days to chem eng foundation entrance paper.. don't know if i'm ready or not but i'm preparing for it.. maths last sat was alright, i don't know if i did alright or not but i felt alright.. heh.. well, 1 more paper to go than i'll be set for waiting for results again..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
emergency bell
i wrote in @ 8:56 a.m. on Monday, Aug. 24, 2009
couldn't slp last nite, manage to fall aslp only at like what.. 330am.. hrmph.. all that being awake was cause i was thinking, brain full of thoughts = busy brain = being kept awake.. i was thinking abt trust.. between frens to be exact.. the amount of trust you have in ur frens shows the level of friendship between the 2.. so if they can't even tell you or ans ur qnses with honesty, ur not really frens.. merely hello-goodbye frens..
if a person were impt to you (bgr-wise), would you want to talk to them always..? i don't know abt others, but i would like to know their thoughts always.. after all, the other person might just be ur soul-mate ur other half, the person you'll spend the rest of ur life with.. you might have literally all the time tgt, but what if they disappear the next day? the "all the time in the world" becomes jus 1 day.. won't you wan to spend it tgt? even if you can't be tgt physically, at least let ur thoughts and voice be tgt? or have you become complacent and let the love fade and the conversation grow cold? i don't know.. i won't want that.. even arguements are a form of communication, but it's a form that can break a relationship if you can't handle it properly or make a relationship grow stronger if you can compromise..
i wish i had a fireman, jus like geum jandi had jiho sumbae in hua yang nan zhi, someone who would stay up all nite to listen for my emergency bell when i disappear.. and i desperately wan to.. disapper from this existance..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
da vinci exhibition~
i wrote in @ 10:21 p.m. on Wednesday, Aug. 12, 2009
today me and yq went science centre for the da vinci exhibition! sorry no photos to show for it.. ^_^ was quite fun since we got to play with some of the exhibit pieces.. lolz.. but he thought there was too many words to read (he prefers pictures and beansprouts).. heh.. it was quite cool, esp looking at the breakdown of the mona-lisa painting (aka La Gioconda or La Joconde).. after looking at the exhibits we went to the science centre itself to see the exhibits there.. after not going there for at least 5 years it's quite fun la.. haha.. the virus exhibition is damn boring btw, the most interesting thing on display was the mosquitoe growth cycle with the real eggs, lavae, pupae and adult mosquitoe.. yeah.. that's abt it i guess..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
WHY! FOR THE LOVE OF GOD! WHY!!!!!!!
i wrote in @ 9:14 a.m. on Wednesday, Aug. 05, 2009
as of yesterday, i have finished reading the RK manga, i'm kinda disappointed with the ending.. not because it's a bad ending but more because THEY CUT KENSHIN'S HAIR SHORTTTTTTTTTTTTT (like cuts to 5years later after the fight with enishi)!!!!!!!!! like a bob style hair.. argh!! T______________T WHYYYYYYYYYY~~~!!! oh for the love of god, he looked so much cuter (not to mention hotter) with that longggg ponytail.. T_______T oh my dear kenshin what have they done to you! -cries- ororororoorororororoorororo!
ok, nuff said.. time to go work neh.. ^_^ on to work, and start the next manga series this weekend or else i won't concentrate and keep thinking abt the manga instead.. ohhohohohohhohoh... later y'all..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
out of boredom
i wrote in @ 1:30 p.m. on Saturday, Aug. 01, 2009
right now i'm waiting for mr tan yong qing to finish ironing his uniform for work tmr.. good thing i've no such thing as uniforms to wear anymore.. XDDD!~!
anyway, bout the last entry, i was jus ranting, don't mind me yeah.. psm.. hahahhaha.. oh well..
it's getting boring, abt 3/4 of the links on my blog face is dead or lock.. -.-" so i've been catching up on my manga online instead esp those i have in chinese (now i can read the english version! XD) because my chinese is like super fail (and i'm quite proud of it even though it's nothing to be proud of.. =X) ok i'm jus talking nonsense now.. cos i'm still waiting for mr tan.. btw, if anyone got any websites to d/l dsl games tell me k.. thankies..
I'M GOING STUDY WITH MR TAN AT ESPLANADE TONIGHT.. HAHAHHAHAHAHA.. OH THE BEAUTY OF YOUTH.. WAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.. pardon me, i've gone mad..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
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i wrote in @ 8:02 p.m. on Wednesday, Jul. 29, 2009
if this time i don't get into nus again.. i will not try again.. i will jus save up and go uk for my degree instead.. this is what i will do..
and i'm starting to resent work, even though i feel useless at times, sometimes i feel overworked.. rushing around like an idiot for nothing.. but still always feeling like i'm inadequate and might get sacked.. haiz.. stuck in a rut.. wtf is wrong with me.. i wan to run away.. escape my reality.. that's what i wan to do..
everything feels so bleak.. no prospects no future.. no hope.. so uncertain..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
spring time romance -> wilt by winter
i wrote in @ 3:51 p.m. on Sunday, Jul. 19, 2009
yesterday/the day before i attained enlightenment abt an issue of teenage romance..
was "looking" at someone's younger bro and his girlfren both of whom are still in secondary sch taking their O'lvls this year.. teenage romance i agree is very sweet and puppy-love kinda affair but i also realise that those relationships and romances at that kind of age seldom last till "death-do-us-part".. (unless you like go to the same poly/tertiary institute and to the same course in the same class than maybe got chance).. but most of the time these relationship breaks down.. and because of this, i finally understand why people say that i was too young back then to have a relationship, plainly because it doesn't last and i will just get heartbroken and jaded again and again..
but my mum being my mum, she let me make all the mistakes i could, and grow up "smarter" street-wise though not necessarily wiser.. i would say poly/uni would be abt the right time to get into relationships and stuff, because we are all somewhat more mature to handle our studies and personally affairs better.. if we still aren't than jus wait somemore..
kinda make sense doesn't it? let's summarise and simplify:
youngsters from sec sch to poly -> too many changes/temptation -> relationship not lasting/strong enough -> heart broken -> jaded and insercure -> broken person
agree?
~With love,
Jo|ty^
Michael Jackson - Gone Too Soon
i wrote in @ 11:28 p.m. on Monday, Jul. 13, 2009
Michael Jackson
Gone Too SoonLike A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon
heard this song on channel 5.. it's really very nice (i mistakenly heard "gone too soon" as "go to sch" =X).. ahhhhh.. he could really sing eh.. really gone too soon..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
ugly photo from the past surfaces
i wrote in @ 1:03 p.m. on Wednesday, Jun. 10, 2009
my past has come back to huant me.. a photo (an ugly one at that) from that nyp photo-session some 1 year ago has surfaced on the sch's page.. good thing it's not on the main page or i'll jus die.. die a horrible death.. argh.. ugly ugly photo of a very stiff me who have smiled too much.. haiz.. i wanna dig a hole and hide in it..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
FF concert legacy..
i wrote in @ 1:21 p.m. on Sunday, May. 24, 2009
yesterday.. i met my musical hero.. nobuo uematsu (-senseiiiiiiiii~~~!!) composer of the music in finial fantasy I to XI.. (like how many peopel get to see their heros!) i never believed that there would be a day i could sit in an FF concert with someone who has the same IF NOT MORE passion (lili dearest) AND have the said musical hero (NOBUO SENSEIIIIIIII~~~!!) sit like 15m infront of you.. AND have that said musical hero SING with the chorale during the encore piece..
The concert opened with FF VIII which was the first FF game i came into contact with thanks to Lili.. Really really, choked up with words, tears, emotions that can't be said, AND they played eyes on me (aka love grows)! OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD, it was jus so moving!!! esp during the part of the video when laguna puts the ring on raine's finger T____________T
though most of the pieces i din really know like from FF I to V.. i really enjoyed the concert.. and that fat guy with the red bandana who screamed for Nobuo-sensei and the encore, he kinda made the whole concert "lively" being the singaporeans we are it was good to see that we have respectful yet "fun"people in the audience.. too bad the FF CD sold out, i got myself a t-shirt instead.. if there's ever another FF concert.. i'll be going! ^^
~With love,
Jo|ty^
a tooth problem..
i wrote in @ 4:13 p.m. on Tuesday, May. 12, 2009
like after many many moons i've finally visited the dentist to fix my front teeths (my teeth kinda look conjoined now and it feels weird in the stuck tgt kinda way..) and he also adviced me to get braces done since i might need to extract 2 decaying teeth which might be beyong hope so that i can close up the gap and straighten out my teeth in the meanwhile..
why like that, my teeth like belong to some 60y.o. aunty instead of me lo.. T____________T ok, might have been all the coke back in sec sch and the sweets and chocolate and the non-existance dental trips and the wisdom teeths making food bits stuck and therefore decaying my teeth.. sadded.. should i get braces done? i quite like my bunny teeth actually it helps to balance out my lips, and it's the bottom row which is ugly.. hmmmm.. decisions decisions..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
scared and shaking..
i wrote in @ 12:02 p.m. on Monday, Apr. 20, 2009
i am shaking.. i am shaking badly.. i'm scared.. i'm terrified.. cos i jus wrote the letter that could get me an interview with the head of b.tech.. i am scared.. my nerves are in many places.. and i still have not ask 2nd boss to write the recommendation letter for me.. no amount of deep breath seem to be working.. i feel so vunerable.. this is out of my comform zone, but this i must do cos i wan to study.. or do i.. i must perservere.. i must.................. i'm still shaking.. argh..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
rejected.. aren't i good enough for you?
i wrote in @ 2:44 p.m. on Friday, Apr. 10, 2009
i did not make it into NUS.. jus like having been dump cos they guy found someone "better" and so i feel like a pile of shit becos, they are basically saying "ur not good enough.. roll over and die trying next sem.." but i'm not really surprised by the outcome, the instinctual gut feeling right after i left the interview room was "i jus blew it, they won't let me in now"
so now on top of my list of things to do is to
1. drown myself in bnj ice-cream
2. get a haircut
3. find a tuition teacher for a maths/calculus
4. finally go visit the dentist to fix my teeth
i shall jus take it easy for this long weekend first than put myself back on the grind monday on.. I'll show NUS that i'm GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM! (than i'll reject them! hah!)
edit: maybe god was punishing me for being such an arrogant punk, acting the way i did with my siblings.. oh well.. i'll jus try again.. with more humility..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
i wrote in @ 1:26 p.m. on Tuesday, Mar. 31, 2009
My Chemical Romance
I Don't Love YouWell when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
When after all this time that you still owe
You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
You better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
Its where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
You better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
~With love,
Jo|ty^
a date with my final fantasy
i wrote in @ 5:10 p.m. on Tuesday, Feb. 24, 2009
there are very few things in life that i want to do, other than get married have a family, get a degree and go taiwan, japan and france..
ever since i've been introduced to final fantasy and the music in the game by lili in sec sch, i've always wanted to watch the man behind the music play live.. that man is nobuo uematsu, the man who writes most of the lovely pieces in final fantasy, that includes to zanarkand and eyes on me..
i'm not familiar with the earlier ff games, nor have i been following the lastest developements, but it doesn't matter.. what matters is that they are gonna hold a final fantasy concert here! in singapore! during the arts festival in may.. i hope i can get my hands on the tix.. it'll be very worth it..
~With love,
Jo|ty^
the past is history | the present is a gift | the future is a mystery
~*Goals & Vision:
~ Go Taiwan 2010
~ Get into B.Tech
~ Grad with a gd degree from B.Tech
~*Wishlist:
~ Rules of Wealth/Work books
~*FF:DW:


~*Lyrical:
Rule The World
You light, the skies up above me
A star so bright you blind me
Don't close your eyes
Don't fade away
Don't fade away
Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
we can rule the world
If walls break down
I will come for you
If angels cry
Oh I'll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don't leave me now
Don't leave me now
Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
we can rule the world
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
we can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
we can rule the world
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you